Musings of Max

Busy busy bee

It’s nice to be busy, I seem to have so many things goin on that it’s hard to keep up. Weekends, and days off are filling up with social activities which is always good but my Urdu lessons need study time and homework and practicing writing. Then there is my TEFL course. I have til the start of July to complete but I feel I need a head start as my brain has not studied for so long I need to get it back into a routine. I am enjoying the reading and quizzes even the assignments are hard but I feel like I will have accomplished something good and something I have wanted to do for ages. It’s just fitting it all in with 9-5 work. Theatre shifts, Urdu lesson and guides plus extra guide activities. Mixtogether meet ups and dog sitting. Ah well I’m glad to be busy and have so much enrichment in my life. You know I would not be moaning Otherwise that I am bored, lonely, unsociable and my brain is rotting. 2012 is a proactive year so far for me. And I am happy with it all!!

Thanks a lot hunny

Feeling a tad confused, saddened and to be honest mostly disappointed that my so called BF who you think would make more effort being in a different time zone and not only country but continent. But not only have I not got a text, email, call in ages I get none of these or a card or gift (which can all be bought and sent from online) for my birthday!! He forgot my birthday! Thank you

Max in 2012

I havnt posted for over a year and when I created my tumblr i wasn’t where I am today.

1. Today and most days I am happy.

2. I have finally realised that I am not meant to be like anyone else. Being me is all i have but it is also all i want.

So what if I am 27 (nearly) and I live at home because I like my home. I get on with my family. And I don’t want to put down roots and buy a house because I do not know 100% where I want to live.

3. During the unhappiest time in my life which was only 2 years, I got led down a path to the greatest people on the planet and I am honoured and privileged to be a part of the Mixtogether Family (mixtogether.org) The support and fighting spirit of all the men and women on this forum have truly inspired me, awakened my heart, and made me feel at home with who I am, who I love, and what I believe in, and what is right and wrong with the world.

4. I am a proud and dedicated member and leader of GuidingUK. Being part of this movement means so much to me. To be 1 of 10 million girls in a worldwide movement. A movement that can and does change the world for millions of women and girls. I have met so many inspiring, caring, honest and amazing women through guiding and know that Guides will lead to bigger and better adventures to come!

5. I know who my friends are and who I want to remain in my life as friends. I too have grown as a friend and value my quality to be loyal as one of my best.

6. I give my love whole heartedly and have had my love returned. My love life never seems easy but i have come to realise that if it was easy I would be bored, question it and not fight for it. Fighting for what I believe in is how I know I feel love for real. Love is hard work and needs fighting for.

Finally, for now, as I said first and foremost. I am happy. I know how lucky I am in my life. I want for nothing. I live and work in the UK part of the western world where no matter how much we moan, it’s not as bad as a 100 other countries in any other direction. Yes there is a recession but I have a house to live in, food to eat in plentiful supply. A job to go to, 2 jobs in fact and both I enjoy, have friends who I love will do anything for and know they will do anything for me. I learn everyday. And I am determined to live everyday for me

I am happy with you I am today and I am excited for what is to come in the next part of 2012, 13 and beyond. Max

Not really astrology- but it’s my Arien weekly forecast

Life is neither fair or unfair, kind nor cruel. It is simply the energy that allows us to exist. It makes no judgements, but whenever we stop for a moment, forget all we have become so caught up in and just recognise what a miracle our very existence is, life somehow seems to take note. If we can summon a little gratitude, it becomes even happier. Or rather, we do. Life doesn’t judge us, but we judge it, all the time. When we judge it to be worth living, we fill up with joy. When we feel no such enthusiasm, magic vanishes faster than the air in a punctured balloon. Find one thing to be glad of this week, and you will soon find ten more!